Sometimes it seems that im not discipline enough and sometimes people tell me that i work too dam much. I really don’t know what to compare myself to or what i should look up to as a idol.
I am no longer a little kid but we all would love to become something or like someone we love and keep trying to get that goal…sometimes people give up too easy or they are just lazy “which isnt my case” because every year i learn new things and i get better at it. My art stuff is getting better and I do enjoy every minute when a client sends me a project.

Today i gain myself at work and notice that i lost some pounds, that’s not good at all! which reminds me something that JAMIE said to me at the club “you losing weight carlos” and i was shocked to hear that. I am just a tab pit lazy when it comes to bringing food at work and i have to leech out of luiz and Geronimo lol. So starting today i will bring my own luck and breakfast to work, keep doing what i need to do and get tons of cash so i can buy that camera and do my photography ASAP. The other camera luiz has it and i dont know when im going to give it back which i dont mind as long its ok.

Another thing thats going threw my mind is just the fact that gay guys around here are still doing their “one night stand” and its pissing me off. The more they do it , the more they complain about not having a boyfriend who loves them or that they cant stay in a relationship for more than 5 months . I personally am starting to think that its not worth trying to help them because they will just end up doing their misquif and say “I didnt mean it”. One of the bigest problem i just seems to be that i try and try but no luck.

I guess i should take a nap. im dead tiered. 🙁