I ended up going to Truman’s to celebrate the new years and also to spend time with Jamie as he came threw the stage in his sexy shirt and his nice expression me makes when i told him that he look good. I had a few drinks and dance just for several seconds so people would just stop bugging me to dance with them. The reason why i didn’t want to dance is because i wanted to spend time with Jamie just doing what he does best “drunk,stare,talk , and look cool” lol

After a failure of winning nothing when they dropped the balloons because they contained prizes,i felt like i needed to remind Jamie that i wish him the best for 2008 and that i care about him and ofcourse “happy bday” .I know i have to give out the hugs,make calls to family and tell them that i wish them the best and so on…after then bar we headed out to “E”‘s place to hang out,we ate,played games,and talked most of the time.
At this time Jamie was so drunk that he got too happy with Jordan who (i hell don’t blame any man) flirt the hell out of him. lol i felt just a bit jealous but i knew that’s i have to just settle down and learn things first.
By the end of the night Jamie left drunk home and we stayed at E’s for the night,This was a great opportunity for me to talk to Jamie’s best friends and learn more about how they think and what they know about. I have learned so much and woke up the next day to set Jamie’s ACTUAL BDAY PARTY.

The plan was all created by his best friends and we went threw all the trouble to get it prepared and when the time arrived,YES, HE CALLED SAYING THAT HE DIDN’T FEEL LIKE IT and people,”i was pissed,E was pissed,ELROY was pissed” but he needed his rest and he gets what he wants because that’s just him. I stayed the day and night at E’s again but this time i just wanted to talk and enjoy my day because they are really cool.

At those 2 days there i began to think about what i wanted in life and what i am willing to change because a lot of people are willing to chance but they never do,it takes more than pretty words to convince me. I think and think about what I’m changing and what i want…this year is all about getting a good work out,eating right and cooking for myself as well as show Jamie that HE IS ALL I WANT.

THESE WAS SOMETHING THAT “E” SAID ABOUT YOUNG PEOPLE,he said that as we grow older are choices change,our style changes and our feeling change. But i got something to add to that “WHEN I CARLOS DIAZ SAY THAT I WANT JAMIE TO BE THE ONE,I’M GOING TO SHOW HIM THAT I AM NOT GOING TO CHANGE MY MIND” I’ve been hurt but I’m not broken and I’m not a pussy to show people that i do care about SOMEONE AND FALL IN LOVE AGAIN.

THAT NIGHT I BROKE MY bracelets THAT I’VE BEEN WEARING FOR YEARS…THIS IS A NEW MARK FOR MY COMMITMENT.

2008 is going to be different and i am willing to make sacrifices