Well last night i found out that “J” was avoiding me, for a fact i already knew since i text mesege him and call him everyday. it seemed that he was just trying to show me that he I WAS TAKING THIS FRIENDSHIP TOO MUCH AND TURNING IT INTO A DATE. He doesn’t want to date right now.

I heard that he was having an after party at his house and later on he tells me that he isn’t. POINT TAKEN AND POINT GO THREW when i visited him after the bar finding out that he did lie. I didnt get mad,i knew he had his reasons, i knew he wanted to draw back from me and i should do the same.

I know i have to be slow with him and keen on waiting and thats something i learned from his best friends “take it slow,GIVE HIM TIME” and now i know what they meant. JAMIE WILL ALWAYS BE THERE,HE WILL ALWAYS DO HIS THING, i have to stop showing my connection and MAKE HIM SEE HOW I CHANGE DURING THESE MONTHS.

Im going to work very hard to get him. i just hope hes reading this blog post or atlest his friends.

NO IM NOT FUCKEN SAD, ITS MY STUPID CHOICES I MADE , THIS IS NOT ABOUT ME ONLY…BUT ABOUT HIM ALSO. SO I HAVE TO DO WHAT I’VE BEEN TAUGHT….

THIS PHRASE GOES ALOT WITH THE BLOG I POSTED LAST NIGHT.